Waxing Nostalgic

A few weeks ago, my Facebook feed was a-clutter with news that the high school I attended in Alabama was closing its doors for good. I have quite a few FB friends from high school so the majority of the posts were all about how sad everyone was, how grateful they were to have gone to school there, their love for the teachers, what great memories they had, etc. All I could think was “meh.” I did share an article about the school closing but I didn’t wax nostalgic about anything high school related. I’ll tell you why. I didn’t particularly care for that school.

There. I said it. Don’t get me wrong; I did have some good memories of my time at that high school. I had friends, I belonged to various clubs, it wasn’t a horrible experience, but it certainly wasn’t the best time of my life. I think the biggest reason was that I had a person in school who didn’t make my life easy. I won’t say s/he was a bully per se but s/he certainly didn’t go out of his/her way to be nice to me and s/he spent a lot of time trying to make me feel insecure about myself, not just physically, but also academically. I have an Asian mother so getting a B or even an A- was never good enough. I suffer from Impostor’s Syndrome as well so outwardly I project confidence, while inside, I’m shaking in my boots, thinking that I’m not good enough. I spent my entire high school years, trying not to let anything this person said or did rattle me but when it’s a constant barrage and no one else around thinks that this person was doing anything other than “lighthearted teasing,” it got to be a bit much. Even when I got accepted to USC, this person did everything to belittle that accomplishment. From telling me that s/he was surprised that I got accepted because my SAT scores were so low (which, I never knew how s/he knew about the scores but s/he did) to commenting about how I’d never fit in at USC because California was all about tan, skinny, beautiful people. Needless to say, when I left Alabama, I was happy to leave this person behind.

(As an aside, I am friends with this person on Facebook. This person friended me, not the other way around, and at first I wasn’t going to accept, but the nosy part of me wanted to see how s/he turned out.)

This was also the first time in my life where I was subjected to rampant and blatant racism. Not only in general, but also directed straight at me. I had just moved from 2 previous locations in which the student bodies were pretty mixed and all of a sudden, I’m living in a place where one race was clearly dominant and race relations were not the best. It was the first time I had ever been looked down on for being not just not white but being mixed race. I was lucky enough to have friends who didn’t care but there were a lot of people who did make comments about it (oddly enough, not my nemesis. S/he never crossed that line.).

While I can empathize with others that it’s sad that the school is closing, I myself am pretty apathetic about it. I can also recognize that a lot of my apathy comes from the fact that I didn’t grow up in that town. I was only there for 2 ½ years of school and I was counting down the days until I could leave for college. A lot of the folks who are sad about it all had much stronger ties to the town/school/people than I did.

I don’t want to bring anyone down about loving their high school experience. I’m glad that people enjoyed their time there. I’m not really sure what I’m trying to accomplish with this blog post. Maybe just to provide a contrasting point of view? Maybe to give a voice to all the folks who didn’t have the great experience everyone else seemed to have? I don’t know.

Trailers I Saw #7

You guys, it’s been TWO YEARS since I’ve seen a movie in a theater.  Holy cow.
Anyways, these are the trailers that I saw.

GREAT NEWS

I am such a bad blogger. I haven’t updated this blog in a while. And I tried to do a blog entry at least 3 days a week and that went nowhere.

But I’ve got some good news.

I’ve got a job. Right now, it’s just temporary but it has the possibility of going permanent. *knock wood*

I’ll go into more detail later.

That Was Then, This Is Now

I was having a conversation the other day with a friend and we got onto the topic of books. I had rated a book on Goodreads recently and she was curious as to why I did so now even though I had read the book in my youth. I wasn’t sure what she was getting at so she explained. She didn’t think I should rate a book now that I’d read a while ago because I wasn’t in the same place now that I was in at the time I read the book. She didn’t think the rating would be accurately reflected. Her feeling is that your life experiences color your perception so a book you read when you were a teenager might not still hold the same resonance with you now since you’ve lived more life in between the times. I understood her position but I didn’t agree.

For me, if I read a book and don’t like it, I won’t read it again. If I like a book, I’ll re-read it again, but I’ll still have the same feelings towards it that I had initially. The only difference is that if enough time has passed, I might pick up on something that I didn’t before or I’ll have a new appreciation for the themes and characters. I honestly have never liked a book, re-read it, and disliked the book.

So, I ask you all, have you ever read a book you liked then re-read it and disliked it?

Rubber Ducky, You’re The One

1. Do you shave every day?
No. I don’t think I need to go into detail with this one.

2. What brands (shampoos, conditioners, soap, etc.) do you use? or do you stick to one certain brand?
I generally use Suave for shampoo and Irish Spring for soap, but I’m not really picky. As long as the smell of whatever isn’t too perfume-y, then I’m ok.

3. Do you brush your teeth in the shower?
Not as a general rule but I have been known to do so if I’m in a hurry or if a sink isn’t available.

4. Shower at night or the morning?
If I’m adhering to a schedule (like a work schedule), then I shower at night because I like to sleep as long as possible in the mornings.
If I don’t have a schedule to keep, then I usually shower whenever I feel like it.
If I’m going out into the public, I will shower before doing so.

5. Do you listen to the radio while in the shower?
Not unless I’m doing some serious pampering. Otherwise, I’m not in the shower long enough to warrant bringing a radio into the bathroom.